The reasons for making this blog are twofold; first, I want to give my family and friends a place to see what's going on with me and my family as we start this amazing journey; secondly, I wanted to leave a kind of journal for my child to look back on when he or she is older, and see what we went through.
As I write this today, I'm not even sure if I am pregnant or not. What I am sure of is that I'm completely broke, and finding a job in this day and age is next to impossible. I'm also sure that whether I'm pregnant now or not, I am the happiest I have ever been in my life, poor or not. If I'm not pregnant, don't worry... I still plan on keeping this blog going. I need to jump start my writing creativity anyway, and it will be great to have an outlet for it, even if it doesn't take much creativity to write about my own life.
So where did this journey begin? I guess it started last August... I met Eric, the man of my dreams. We didn't get to be high school sweethearts, and we didn't go on a blind date that was set up by our friends; this is, after all, the age of technology, meaning we met online. I always thought that online dating sites were fun to look at and think about, but seriously, it's not like anyone would ever REALLY meet their soul mate there. I was proved wrong. Since I met him, everything in the world makes sense.
Today, even though neither of us currently has a job, we're scraping by. Eric is donating plasma so we can have gas money and pay our basic bills. We're living with my parents, which has serious downfalls, but at least we have a roof over our heads. I know, in the event of us not having the money for our own place, that they won't (hopefully...) kick us out to live on the streets with a baby.
So what this blog is really about is how to grow a baby for the first time, trying to do it while trying to find a job, and how we get from here to there - the place of our own with enough money to feed ourselves and a little miracle.
So, time for a little bit about the actual possible pregnancy. Warning: it might get a little bit TMI here. If the miracle child is a boy and he's reading this in the future, he may choose to stop reading now. I'm officially, if judging from my normal cycle, which is exactly 28 days, one week late. Which isn't much to be thinking I'm pregnant under normal circumstances, I know. But, since coming off of the pill (when I no longer had the money to pay for it...) my periods have been every 21 days, 3 weeks. Which makes me exactly TWO weeks late. And I've been off the pill since November... that's 5 months of constantly being every 3 weeks. So I'm thinking at 2 weeks late, it's time to take a pill. I've had late periods in the past, but not for almost 18 months, and not since coming off the pill. Oh, and did I mention, last month my period was extremely quick and light... just a little heavier than say, spotting. Could it be that I was pregnant last month but just experiencing spotting, as I've read can happen?
On top of that, I'm extremely fatigued, with the worst headache I've had, possibly ever, which I've read could happen to some women in their first trimester. Also, I've had a little bit of moodiness toward Eric... normally my moodiness isn't enough to even touch him, I try exceptionally hard not to be moody with him. And though it's a bit early, I've been having food cravings and aversions... there are some other things too, that are WAY too TMI... all adding up to Eric bringing home a pregnancy test later.
If it's positive, then this will be the journey through pregnancy. If it's negative, then it will be a journey through life, getting pregnant, and planning a family. Will update with results!